Terrified

Regardless of being a cultural-seeking junkie outside of America, I have as of recently been faced with an extremely huge decision I have to make in regards of my future. This involves me moving, yes. I have always been up for experiences that will take me further to see, experience and grow. But for some reason, I am just so terrified for what's about to come next in my life.

Have I made a decision? Not officially. In my heart, I know where I want to go. But I can't help but think of how extreme this move is. I don't know whether if I'm just not ready, or haven't acknowledged that when it comes to these opportunities, fear never goes away. Sometimes life gives you an opportunity even when you're not ready. If not now, then when? When will an opportunity like this ever come again?

Don't get me wrong, I've had my ups and downs ever since I heard about the news. One moment I tell myself I can, and other times I tell myself I can't. This battle is abusive to my spiritual health. Is it the debt that scares me the most? Am I afraid that I can't make it out there on my own? Fear and money are the worst. I think it frightens me that fear will strike at multiple moments, and debt will remain a long ways down the road.

But that's life, right? This post itself is sounding like a battle. I guess, what I really need is the support. I need someone to tell me that it's going to be okay, and everything will work out rather than telling me how this experience won't be worth it. What can I benefit from this next move? So much. It will definitely make me grow, and the possibilities are endless. So if the possibilities are endless, what makes me think that I won't be successful in the end? The human condition to want to know what happens in the future is so tiresome.

K-pop, anyone?

Hi all! I hope you guys enjoyed the previous post about tips on traveling. KC Owen's tips are very helpful to those who are traveling anywhere around the world. If you haven't seen it yet, make sure to check it out here! When I read his post, there were some tips that I wish I could have made during my travel days that I am sure to prevent the next time.

My journey in Korea is almost ending with just about two weeks left. I am sad about this because I have enjoyed a lot of things here that I will miss terribly, such as my students, some friends I made in the program, the cultural activities, my freedom...

But to bring this post on a lighter note, here are some songs that I have caught myself either singing or stuck in my head all day while here in Korea. And yes, they are Korean songs. So, those of you who are not familiar with some Korean artists, here are a few that are new and old.

 

Sistar - "Give It To Me" 

Psy - "Gentleman" 

Girls Generation - "Gee"

4 Minute - "What's your name?"

C.N. Blue - "Wetoria" 

2NE1 - "Falling In Love" 

Dynamic Duo - BAAAM

Ailee - "U&I"

Psy - "Gangnum Style"
Of course, this song never dies.

Happy listening! xx