I've been thinking how the behavior here has been affecting me. Ever since I got back to America I feel as though I've been getting punches in the face. I am adjusting a lot better than I have been before, but I am getting really irritated by a lot of things and am constantly reminded of the reason why I wanted to study abroad in the first place. Being productive at the time now means a lot to me, whether I'm working on something that is school related, career related or spiritually learning about myself. I feel a lot better by doing this than getting angry and worrying because that doesn't take me anywhere really.
I have been thinking and doing a lot of research about what I want to do once I finish my degree here in San Bernardino. It gets overwhelming and exciting. I still have to take care of a lot of things for school where at the same time I have to look out for requirements if I'm applying for something international related during my school year. At least I could say, that I feel good that I'm already thinking of what I want to do once I graduate instead of waiting around until I do.
It's hard, but I'm trying to let the little things inspire me again, even if it means putting Love Actually in the DVD player just to hear the British accents or drinking a cup of Earl Grey in the morning.
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ReplyDeleteP.S. Related to the job, that is really inconsiderate of them not to have offered you the job first. Especially since you have first-hand experience with the process of studying abroad. Hopefully somehow something will work out. But I'm glad you already have a backup plan to find another position. Still, it's incredibly rude (and stupid!).
ReplyDeleteYou, Miss Linda, are just the greatest. I really wish I could have you within hugging distance because you are the ray of sunshine people need in this world. You're positive, optimistic, and grateful. You are just a wonderful person.
ReplyDeleteI especially loved the last sentence of this post. I like to do those types of things for myself, too.
I wish you were closer. <3
This is honestly one of the nicest things someone has ever said to me. <3 Thank you Miquella! I'm so happy to have stumbled upon a livejournal page to find you! You are such a driven and sweet person and I know someday you're going to go very far my dear! :) I wish we were closer, but at least we live in the same state! Thank you for understanding me and thank you for all the support you've given. I couldn't have asked for more. It means a whole lot for someone to understand while trying to be just who I am, and I love you for that! :)
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