New goal

The past two weeks have been full of anxiety, contemplation and hopefulness regarding my future. Two weeks full of these emotions are the two weeks post graduation. I have not been in relaxation mode or have given credibility to myself by the fact that I've accomplished my Bachelors degree. I need to calm down!!

Coming home from studying abroad motivated me to pursue my dreams. But that fell out of place during my last quarter in college (ironic, right?). I should be excited on planning to go abroad again, especially seeing my friends and all these post study-abroaders returning to their second homes. The truth is, I reached a point where I'm reverting back to old habits and doubting to pursue my dreams. It's easy to get these jitters again when all I am thinking is how I'm going to pay back my student loans...

But recently, there has been a shift to all these doubts. Reverting back means that I am gradually losing the knowledge and wisdom I have learned in the past two years, and I don't want to lose that. Something about this week has inspired me to continue forward. I have finally woken up from my lack of motivation and have made a new life goal. And I have to thank all the people I met up and talked to this week for believing in me more than myself. 

I have made the decision to apply to graduate school. Graduate school has always been in mind, but as to when I wanted to go was always ambiguous. I feel that now is the right time to go. I have found programs that I definitely see myself studying and they are all located in major cities, which I dream living in.  If I do get into one of these universities, it will be a dramatic change for me since they are all not in California. I found programs located in the east coast and out of the country.

Let's hope that one of these schools accept me. Although I have accomplished my dream to study abroad in the UK, I have yet to meet my goal on living in a big city. Swansea did not give me justice on living in a 'city' but nevertheless I am grateful because I could not imagine my life without the people I met during that year.

So cheers to a new goal, a new year and a new me!